Sometimes things are oddly awkward, yes I used both of those terms to emphasize the level of weirdness of the situation.
Suddenly you begin to see that the world around is full of happy people, some are getting married, some are having their birthdays, some are enjoying at home and others are just busy caressing their egos to satisfy their level of self importance.
In short, all of them are happy.
You look at them and you realize that you cannot even smile; why? Well, because you are facing a turmoil, your brain is not at rest (thankfully so else you would be dead) and your heart, now this fellow is sitting blank.
The smile does not come out even when you force yourself. You want to cry, but where are the tears; you want to be alone, but then you need someone by your side too.
You want to be happy but the sadness inside roars harder to make you realize that this is not it, the things are going to get worse.
The breath of fresh air is not fresh anymore, you want to sleep but where is the sleep.
In such a time of inner upheaval, take a deep breath and let it out. Write down what you feel on a paper and read it again, again and yet again till you realize that the sentences you just wrote down ended in a full stop. Your problems will end too.
These are mood swings and you will be fine soon. The best part, these mood swings offer the best chance to showcase your creativity because your brain is most stimulated at such peak times. So, Go ahead and enjoy, you are still better than many !!
Suddenly you begin to see that the world around is full of happy people, some are getting married, some are having their birthdays, some are enjoying at home and others are just busy caressing their egos to satisfy their level of self importance.
In short, all of them are happy.
You look at them and you realize that you cannot even smile; why? Well, because you are facing a turmoil, your brain is not at rest (thankfully so else you would be dead) and your heart, now this fellow is sitting blank.
The smile does not come out even when you force yourself. You want to cry, but where are the tears; you want to be alone, but then you need someone by your side too.
You want to be happy but the sadness inside roars harder to make you realize that this is not it, the things are going to get worse.
The breath of fresh air is not fresh anymore, you want to sleep but where is the sleep.
In such a time of inner upheaval, take a deep breath and let it out. Write down what you feel on a paper and read it again, again and yet again till you realize that the sentences you just wrote down ended in a full stop. Your problems will end too.
These are mood swings and you will be fine soon. The best part, these mood swings offer the best chance to showcase your creativity because your brain is most stimulated at such peak times. So, Go ahead and enjoy, you are still better than many !!
I always feel that only the memories that you want to remember should be written down on a piece of paper - unless an `untitled - notepad` is there to rescue you. In times like these, one must find things that they can relate to. Maybe join an activities group (think meetup.com) and meet new people and get brand new perspective on things.
ReplyDeleteGood post! Beautifully express. Ended on a good note. :) I did try to comment earlier. Maybe that one didn't go thru.