Monday, September 23, 2013

Anger Enslaved..

(What the Devil taught me)

Professional life can be a bit of a torture especially when you are young and bubbling with ideas, having lots of responsibilities but with people who are there to screw it all for you around.
Anger in such cases is the easiest way out it seems. You shout and shriek like mad at people sometimes even double your age and then you think, "what else could have I done?"

You go about telling tales of how you stood for the right thing but, there is a big BUT to it.
Deep down somewhere you realise that this was not something you wanted to do. Losing your temper like that was not even the last thing that should have been done but then that was exactly what you did.

And, once this thought process starts, you are engulfed in the deep abyss of guilty you never wanted to have.

This is not just for the youngsters like me; anger pangs and the guilt that follows it causes much of the official pressure we talk of.

I won't say I have been averse to getting angry and I have been till some times back been a keen believer of the "tit for tat" tactic.
But then came a turning point and I changed it all.

Now, I believe in letting it go and if somebody or something pesters me, I shut my brain to that and concentrate on better and productive things. That is just a way out and there are many others too.

I may be called an escapist but yes am happily one and I am proud of it because I am escaping the periods of haunting miseries that will follow once I spit it back.

I have experimented with keeping calm and for the first few days, it nearly killed me. But having passed the phase, I am enjoying the bliss I am having. I am visibly happy and cheerful, much more than what I used to be and there is this distinct calm surrounding my life.

My mind has opened up to the vast realities and I have been experiencing the utopia, I once dreamt of.
I make resolutions every week and having shut myself to the negativity around, I have been able to give more time to myself.
I have been working on me, to better myself and to do even better and it has been going really well.

This is a personal experience I am sharing and I would love to know what you feel if you try the same too.

Waiting for your response..

(Confused Genius, can't let the devil in her die and so, initially and even now when she doesn't react and sees her adversaries getting irritated by her calm, somehow gives her a pleasure even more divine (TIC). The devil is so much fun, you just need to master it. And mastering the devil, thats exactly what the devil taught me.)

Sunday, September 22, 2013

Am happy Cause am not Sad !!

I had been feeling particularly happy for about a week now and today, at the weekend I sat to analyse as to what was the reason behind it all.
Well actually, none. I was happy just because I was happy as I had no reason to be sad about.
We never really have to search for reasons to be happy, happiness comes to us naturally. Take for example, you are having your morning stroll and this puppy is playing on the road, makes you smile; the kid going to school waving his hands in air, makes you happy; the utter stupidity your colleague just did, well it was such a big one that you couldn't help but smile.
Happiness is not about being happy, its all about not being sad.
We have to search for reasons to be sad about, sometimes we search and other times we just make them up ( though there are some serious reasons too and they are genuine,  but lets not talk about that).

Why do we in search of larger happiness, ignore the smaller ones that come to us everyday. Believe me, if you start measuring, you have been happy for 90% of your life and that is a bit too much.

Your life is all about your perspectives, how you infer things. You change that and accordingly will change the reasons that will define your emotions.

So stop cribbing about the alleged sadness and miseries in your life, the moon out there is shining bright, go and be happy about it because god has given you eyes to see and appreciate its beauty..

But oh! I just gave you a big reason,let me give you another small one, are you feeling sad right now ? No, then come on be happy about it..

(Confused Genius is happy and enjoying herself, because she has changed her perspective towards things. Maybe you should try that too.)